[ He thought he stilled her, steadied them both actually but then she's talking and asking questions and he's not really taking in and processing any of it. It's like he can see her lips flapping and her eyes frenetic and wide, pretty sure a drop of spit launched itself off her tooth and landed directly on his forehead, but the words are bouncing around in the air around his head, nowhere to land.
And then she slows for a moment and he picks up her last phrase, Did we die?...]
I...am still trying to figure that. But, if we did, we're gonna haunt the hell out of whoever did this to us, right, Robs?
[ Ghosts aren't that crazy to believe in, not after all the things he's experienced. Ok maybe still a little crazy, even though some of the killers are actual ghosts. But not him and not Robin. Probably. Fuck. Are they ghosts?
And then she steadies him, probably because he's visibly shaking a little bit from all of this, and her grasping him helps a lot actually, and then she launches into what everyone thinks happened back in Hawkins, and what happened to Nance and him, and he's always wondering what they all think, and now he knows and he's so close to a piece of his old life he almost forgets the Hell he's been living in for what seems like forever and then he realizes that she's here now and they might not have a chance to make it back to Hawkins, and even if they did, he couldn't leave Nance and Jonathan behind. And it's all just too much at once.
The dam that had been building behind his eyelids spill over just a little bit, and his voice cracks as he answers her. ]
Yeah. I-I'm ok. I don't know what happened. But I've just missed you a lot. And Dustin, and the party, and home.
[ He buries his head in her shoulders for just a moment, trying to steady his breaths and regain control of himself. It's not more than five to ten seconds later when he's got it back. And he reverses their stances again. Not sure at what point this starts to count as them dancing, but they've gotta be close right?]
Robin, I need you to tell me very carefully, how you got here. We can try and grab Nance and Byers, make it back, pretend none of this ever happened. Please tell me you know something I don't.
[ The deperation in his voice, she could probably cut it with a knife. ]
[ Robin talks. A lot. When she's nervous she just keeps going and right now is probably one of the most overwhelmingly nerve wracking moments in existence. She has no idea what's happening, which is becoming an increasingly regularity in her life that has, it seems, finally reached a peak of everything being so hard to understand that she wants to scream and cry and throw up a little. Steve's answering her, so she slows, because he's calm and weirdly steadying.
But she doesn't give her a very good answer to the question. ] What do you mean you're trying to figure it out? Shouldn't you know? How do we not know if we're dead or not!? [ Her eyes widen, further, further. But they're holding each other. He's saying they'll defeat it. She clenches her mouth shut and nods, small quick rapid-fire nodding. She has to hold him steady. If he falls apart, she falls apart. And let's face it, she's smarter than him so she has to keep her shit together.
He's shaking. She's practically vibrating. Keep it together, Harrington. ] Okay-Okay okay... Can I just- [ INHALE. EXHALE.
Her eyes wander because time seems slow suddenly while he answers her. His voice crack immediately making tears formulate on her own eyes, unable to stop them. Her focus caught. Robin runs a nail with chipped polish over a spot on his shirt while she's got her hands on him, scraping at it like she can get it off. Copper brown. Just a single drop but she's getting complete vertigo staring at it. He says he's okay and she just knows he's lying.
Her voice is incredibly small suddenly: ]
I missed you too. They all did. I'm going to cry if you start crying-
[ Her head tilts to press her cheek against his hair when he's buried in her shoulder, one hand squeezing the shoulder she's still holding. Their positions reverse, a balance of taking turns being the strong one for each other. ]
I-... I don't know? I went to the mall. Dustin thought we could look there but I told him to stay put, because you would've said that, and I felt like I had to look there. Like um, magnet. Pull. That's stupid. It's all sectioned off charred rubble and big fences around it but everything was cleaned out. Not a scrap of that thing left, or bodies, or government guys. I was standing by, I think, what was the food court and I thought "there's nothing here" but then it got really foggy and I felt like I was suffocating but nothing was there just soot and maybe spider webs.
I'm sorry, Steve. I don't know. I really don't.
one week later, i wanted to wait for full brain cell function and sleep for this tag hehe <333
[ Oh it's Rapid-fire nervous Robin, even after all this time without her, Steve remembers it like yesterday, it's comforting in a way, despite the troubling causes. But that's ok, he's got her right now, she might be smarter, but he's got the bravery. Well, she does too. Ok they're tied. But he'll take the lead on it this time. ]
It's just really complicated, we're somewhere. Where dying doesn't even matter. I die over and over. But here I am. Safe and sound, and reunited with you.
[ That sounds crazy. Does he sound crazy? Is this too much for Robin? She's already short circuiting, should he maybe have braced her for this, because he's already on edge and like on the verge of breaking down, her hold on him being the only barrier to stop it.
But then she's tearing up, rubbing her chipped polished nail into his shirt, picking at some dried blood. He takes a second admiring it, been so long since he's had someone care about his appearance, it's just sweat and mud and blood here for everyone else, but Robin is so freshly arrived. He's not even sure if she's rubbing off any from his shirt, its caked on so thickly. Maybe nothing's coming off. Maybe she just needs to do that, and that's fine. Because it feels nice, the hug too, and it slows his heart a little, calms him, so he can recollect himself, be the strong one again in a moment. ]
No crying here. [ That's a lie, if there's one person on the planet, or the entire dimension that could get Steve to cry, it's Robin. His best friend, the shield to his sword. And that's why a tear spills over that he quickly wipes away and smiles to distract from it.
And then she tells him how she got here, and he's taking it in but he's also doing a lot of processing himself.]
Good call on Dustin. That twerp so does not belong here... Robin wait, that sounds like exactly how Nance and I ended up here. Ok, me and Nance, we were exploring the lab, back at Hawkins, and we just. We must've activated the portal by accident, or maybe the Russians did this, but then there was all this fog and a whooshing noise and that feeling you get on one of those spinny rides at the Hawkins state fair that I hate so much and it brought us here to this place. I don't know if it's the upside down or not, but it feels...off. Different. There's others too. Came here from other places, other...times? We'll figure this shit out together, get back home. You and me Robs, together we're unstoppable, right? I mean we took down an entire Russian base, otherworldly dimensions got nothing on us.
[ And then he rearranges them, taking the strong stance again, his hope for salvation slowly renewing. Motivation to fix this growing exponentially, since it means he'll save the one person he loves the most. ]
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me imploding trying to reign in my praise of your robin, she's so good and you're so good!!!!!!!!
And then she slows for a moment and he picks up her last phrase, Did we die?...]
I...am still trying to figure that. But, if we did, we're gonna haunt the hell out of whoever did this to us, right, Robs?
[ Ghosts aren't that crazy to believe in, not after all the things he's experienced. Ok maybe still a little crazy, even though some of the killers are actual ghosts. But not him and not Robin. Probably. Fuck. Are they ghosts?
And then she steadies him, probably because he's visibly shaking a little bit from all of this, and her grasping him helps a lot actually, and then she launches into what everyone thinks happened back in Hawkins, and what happened to Nance and him, and he's always wondering what they all think, and now he knows and he's so close to a piece of his old life he almost forgets the Hell he's been living in for what seems like forever and then he realizes that she's here now and they might not have a chance to make it back to Hawkins, and even if they did, he couldn't leave Nance and Jonathan behind. And it's all just too much at once.
The dam that had been building behind his eyelids spill over just a little bit, and his voice cracks as he answers her. ]
Yeah. I-I'm ok. I don't know what happened. But I've just missed you a lot. And Dustin, and the party, and home.
[ He buries his head in her shoulders for just a moment, trying to steady his breaths and regain control of himself. It's not more than five to ten seconds later when he's got it back. And he reverses their stances again. Not sure at what point this starts to count as them dancing, but they've gotta be close right?]
Robin, I need you to tell me very carefully, how you got here. We can try and grab Nance and Byers, make it back, pretend none of this ever happened. Please tell me you know something I don't.
[ The deperation in his voice, she could probably cut it with a knife. ]
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But she doesn't give her a very good answer to the question. ] What do you mean you're trying to figure it out? Shouldn't you know? How do we not know if we're dead or not!? [ Her eyes widen, further, further. But they're holding each other. He's saying they'll defeat it. She clenches her mouth shut and nods, small quick rapid-fire nodding. She has to hold him steady. If he falls apart, she falls apart. And let's face it, she's smarter than him so she has to keep her shit together.
He's shaking. She's practically vibrating. Keep it together, Harrington. ] Okay-Okay okay... Can I just- [ INHALE. EXHALE.
Her eyes wander because time seems slow suddenly while he answers her. His voice crack immediately making tears formulate on her own eyes, unable to stop them. Her focus caught. Robin runs a nail with chipped polish over a spot on his shirt while she's got her hands on him, scraping at it like she can get it off. Copper brown. Just a single drop but she's getting complete vertigo staring at it. He says he's okay and she just knows he's lying.
Her voice is incredibly small suddenly: ]
I missed you too. They all did. I'm going to cry if you start crying-
[ Her head tilts to press her cheek against his hair when he's buried in her shoulder, one hand squeezing the shoulder she's still holding. Their positions reverse, a balance of taking turns being the strong one for each other. ]
I-... I don't know? I went to the mall. Dustin thought we could look there but I told him to stay put, because you would've said that, and I felt like I had to look there. Like um, magnet. Pull. That's stupid. It's all sectioned off charred rubble and big fences around it but everything was cleaned out. Not a scrap of that thing left, or bodies, or government guys. I was standing by, I think, what was the food court and I thought "there's nothing here" but then it got really foggy and I felt like I was suffocating but nothing was there just soot and maybe spider webs.
I'm sorry, Steve. I don't know. I really don't.
one week later, i wanted to wait for full brain cell function and sleep for this tag hehe <333
It's just really complicated, we're somewhere. Where dying doesn't even matter. I die over and over. But here I am. Safe and sound, and reunited with you.
[ That sounds crazy. Does he sound crazy? Is this too much for Robin? She's already short circuiting, should he maybe have braced her for this, because he's already on edge and like on the verge of breaking down, her hold on him being the only barrier to stop it.
But then she's tearing up, rubbing her chipped polished nail into his shirt, picking at some dried blood. He takes a second admiring it, been so long since he's had someone care about his appearance, it's just sweat and mud and blood here for everyone else, but Robin is so freshly arrived. He's not even sure if she's rubbing off any from his shirt, its caked on so thickly. Maybe nothing's coming off. Maybe she just needs to do that, and that's fine. Because it feels nice, the hug too, and it slows his heart a little, calms him, so he can recollect himself, be the strong one again in a moment. ]
No crying here. [ That's a lie, if there's one person on the planet, or the entire dimension that could get Steve to cry, it's Robin. His best friend, the shield to his sword. And that's why a tear spills over that he quickly wipes away and smiles to distract from it.
And then she tells him how she got here, and he's taking it in but he's also doing a lot of processing himself.]
Good call on Dustin. That twerp so does not belong here... Robin wait, that sounds like exactly how Nance and I ended up here. Ok, me and Nance, we were exploring the lab, back at Hawkins, and we just. We must've activated the portal by accident, or maybe the Russians did this, but then there was all this fog and a whooshing noise and that feeling you get on one of those spinny rides at the Hawkins state fair that I hate so much and it brought us here to this place. I don't know if it's the upside down or not, but it feels...off. Different. There's others too. Came here from other places, other...times? We'll figure this shit out together, get back home. You and me Robs, together we're unstoppable, right? I mean we took down an entire Russian base, otherworldly dimensions got nothing on us.
[ And then he rearranges them, taking the strong stance again, his hope for salvation slowly renewing. Motivation to fix this growing exponentially, since it means he'll save the one person he loves the most. ]